Well God told me no. And not just me. Me and Marc. We (I) like to plan - it's really a sickness. We (I) had it all planned out. Marc was going to get a full-time job at the beginning of the year, we would receive full benefits (praise the Lord because it gets old and $$$ paying for your own insurance), Marc would finish school, and we would start a family. And they lived happily ever after. That was the MY plan. God said NO!
The full-time position we were hoping for did not get approved. And it hurt. It hurt to see my sweet husband who works so hard disappointed. It hurt to think that God didn't want this for us as well. I wanted to pout, I wanted to argue with Him, I wanted to throw an all out temper tantrum to change His mind. After a "crying and shaking my fist at God" episode, I sucked it up. It was time to put on my big girl panties and deal with the fact that He is in control. Who am I to argue with Him? He has plans for us and I know it's 100% better than anything I can plan. And, He's so quick to remind that He will provide for us - even when it looks different than how we thought He would provide. He has and continues to take care of us. Probably for the first time in my life, I am thankful for the word No. His No convicted us, brought us onto our knees and into His will and His timing.
Then Jesus said to his disciples: “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. For life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest? Consider how the wild flowers grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you—you of little faith! And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it. For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need them. But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well. Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has been pleased to give you the kingdom." - Luke 12:22-32